after all that long fever diarhoea cough running nose crazy persistent fever haha BECAUSE I was worrying about everything -_- until I became SO sick haha good thing my Dad opened me haha then I understood I came to this world with nothing I will also go off with nothing.. academics just something material haha though it might be important but beijng happy is the most important!

okok signing off~

I like to leave all my pains in this post so that I will not be in pain! Pain of walking, pain of standing, pain of sleeping, pain of nightmares ha! yes that's great pain gone!

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so the results... UEEE? woah aint good at all... there's kind of a hopelessness darkness lingering.. after so many things happen at the miraculous age of 18! the age of torture, Dad operation, medical condition worsening, traces of blood in urine, losing ability to walk --- it has come down to this. 29 days to A levels and counting. There isn't much I can hope for. but I will end strong. It's not about the results now lol its how hard you finish the final lap.. To all my friends out there: Study Hard and End Strong! For even if the results do not come out as well as you might have expect, one thing you will not regret is for doing everything you can to try to achieve the results you want! Someone once said, an unfinished dream is better than an untried dream. Living life to the fullest is living one with no regret! Strive on my friends, this is the last ride. With this, I wish all my friends good luck for their A levels and their exams ;)

Yours Truly,

Samuel   

hmm econs today allowed creativity but some questions are just too creative haha! oh well, did my best XD began to learn how to walk.. well sounds funny but yea loist the skill of walking and still learning to walk yesterday went for a 30 mins walk to Elias Mall and back home.. today went for 1 hour walk to west plaza and back home hmm so.. what's next for tomorrow? haha not sure what's in stall for me but I'll gladly learn how to walk.. pain is something which allows you to master mind over body haha.. well I think it's a magnificent skill but I know it's not nice being in pain.. yi bo yi zhe you yi zhe

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I didn't what in the world was wrong with chemistry paper!? skipped many parts of the question -_-... its like a skipping rope contest you just keepskipping... then in the end you find out OH you didn't gain enough skips to pass the qualifying round for the skipping contest and VOILA gone with the wind... strong tendency to just say all the words in the uncivilised language of the evil guy in our lives. SIAO WHAT KIND OF SIAO PAPER WAS CHEMISTRY!?!? WORST THAN INFERENTIAL QUESTIONS!? THE HELL>>>...>>>... Relieve some stress over there dont mind me! Desperate times calls for desperate remarks! ARGH! ok cool - ed do - wn I gu -ess ok ti - me t - o g - o c - ya

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hahaha tomorrow is teacher's day so have you gotten ready your present? or your gift? or just your handshake of love? haha well Im going back to school tomorrow haha hmm... I did what I had to do because I had to do what I ought to do.. since being emotionally traumatise aint gonna help anyone or anything, do something about it. First think of what you ought to do. Then next, think of methods to achieve it. Finally, carry out the plan. yea! some adapted from Neo Angelique~ haha anyway Happy Teacher's Day to all teachers in the world! May all the teachers carry on their passion of teaching and become great teachers of this time and age to create a better future for the future generations to come.

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not long when I was in K1/K2 I joined the Abacus class in Bishan.. hoho when I joined at first, there was this aura of awkwardness cause I didn't know anyone there haha.. but as time went by yep we made friends with each other! haha! it was great then I had great abacus classmates hehe :D it was fun doing abacus with them :) we were like the ultimate team.. hehe.. we were good friends BUT we never got each others number and never took a photo.. not even once.. well I feel kind of sad! cause they were my good friends! haha I'll never forget them (though I can hard remember their faces..) it's gonna be searching for needles in a haystack to find them =x hopefully we'll meet again soon! yea! alright well there's a secret during this course of learning abacus hoho! I had a dream that one day I would count faster than the calculator! haha my friends and I was always speeding in abacus but with accuracy ^^ hehe I always have this funny thing during abacus.. I think I had three modes lol the first was the normal speed with good accuracy, the second was the accelerated speed with accuracy, the third was the gambled speed with accuracy depending mostly on luck and chance haha (yea people think I'm crazy) I think cartoons really influence me alot lol (keeping the ultimate skill for the final battle) haha! ah.. and there was my abacus teacher! She actually didn't move with her group of teachers who relocated at Hougang I think.. she stayed to teach me.. Until now I still cannot forget this because!! she done so much for me.. I haven't visited her for a very long time.. I also dont know what to say!! ARGH! BUT I must not be ungrateful.. I will visit her (with my Mum) so that when I dont know what to say then my Mum and teacher can talk to each other! ha! brilliant plan heh.. and.. lastly, there are many people whom I have to thank.. many of my elders of whom some I dont know where they are now.. cause they shifted their working place or retire! BUT I will try my best to visit them when I can! and if I cant do that anymore, I'll pass their kindness, care and love forward! yea! and of course, my friends :) without them, Im nothing! haha thank you my friends! You make my life great :)

Lots  of  love  received, Samuel,  passing it  forward~

But we in it shall be remembered --

We few, we happy few, we band of brothers;

For he today that sheds his blood with me

Shall be my brother

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And so, this one fine Sunday, I was recalling a phrase and surfing the web where I found this interesting part adapted from taken from Article Alley "The Difference Between Boss and Leader"

Every leader is a boss. But every boss is not the leader. This defines the difference between a boss and a leader. The biggest difference between a boss and a leader is one. The boss is respected and obeyed because of his/her seniority. A leader is respected and looked up to as a example not only because of seniority but mainly because of the qualities of character and ability.

Those who aspire to become leaders must lead by example. The team must always have a firm belief that the leader will be there during every crisis. Not to fix the blame, but fix the problem. If the team members find that the leader does not follow what he/she preaches, they will have no respect for him/her. They may obey him/her, but the respect will be missing. Leaders gain this respect by their actions. They look and act sincerely. There is no mismatch between their words and actions. They look integral in approach and character.

To be a leader, every boss must display characteristics such as knowledge, planning, anticipation, foresight, action, result oriented approach, perspective, respect every team member, earn their respect, act as a friend and act as a mentor. This is quite a list, but if you want to become a good leader you need these qualities. This is true not only for national leaders but for persons in every leadership position in any organization. Once a person earns the respect of his /her team members he/she ceases to be only a boss and transforms into a leader.

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A wise man told me before, "Will is very important. Mental strength, your will determine how successful you can do well in everything. Look at me. Im still living. Why? Because I know I must. Will is something so powerful that is in our mind and of course with God's grace, would then I be here." This was what I remembered though some parts were vaguely recalled. Those few words I remember vividly, "I believe you can do it." simple those words are, it empowered my drive. Really feeling sleepy now @@ dont know what's getting over me. Did I make a mistake today? I really hope not. Oh well if I did, there goes everything. But I have only myself to blame. There's no one I can blame for my plight. I need to cultivate myself in the quiet form. My friends, please do not think that Im trying to avoid you or ignore you. I think I need time to reform myself.

The inside of me trying to tell me something. Let me listen to it. Okok meditating ;)